Sunday, December 19, 2010
But luckily I have a huge log saving me from drowning.
How to define a relationship.
Friends? After I enter uni , I realise that there're diff ways in classifying a friendship.
And which I don think it really exist. But now I started to feel unsecure. Can anybody ensure me that i'm thinking too much? Maybe so. I know myself pretty well. I've put in effort to change but it seems that I'm still me. And how stupid am I that by now only I realise I don have to make anyone like me . If they understand me they would have accepted me for who I am.maybe I'm Jus an attention freak for them anyway.Maybe ken's right. Something he said Jus enlighten me.... I miss you buddy.
I hope things work out.
It's really have been a tough week for me.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
How fast time passed? Its Jus a blink since I celebrated christmas in india last year....
So happy that christmas is here again...Although now i'm struggling with internals .... T.T pathology makes me crazy... My brain stop working when I study the chapter sterilisation for microbiology.... Aikz..... That show how boring 2nd year subjects are... But still.... I need to study!
Have been moody for few days.... Have no idea why... But still! I'm excited for my christmas holiday trip... Going to spend my christmas in numbai this year....
Weather in salem is so cold.... Its so nice to sleep but yet i'm having insomnia.... Maybe sometimes I take things too seriously.... Its tired to be who you are not suppose to be.... When could I be honest to myself as well as to anyone else.... Hope the day come soon..... Good night world.....
#lucky i'm in love with my best fren lucky to be where I've been lucky to be coming home again....#
Friday, October 8, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Officially ended my first year at the moment i step on my motherland.
How fast time passes?
Its just like yesterday when i first came home in march.
Phew. Many things happened within a year~
There's happy things, there's sad things.
But its not important anymore.
Its good to be home, although my doggie barked at me like hell.haha..
She obviously dun remember me... t.t
My hand's swollen. Insect bite i think.
Now its so damn hard to type on the keyboard.
Sleepy... gtg... bye
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
What if i'm not that stubborn?
Would i gain back the things that i've lost?
Or from this moment onwards i shud change?
Evidence one -
Maybe i shud have forgive her earlier.
Then i could gain back the fun i suppose to have in choir.
Singing used to be a part of me. Because of tat small incident, i gave up.
Feel so stupid and childish when i think back.
Haha. Now? I think i've lost the opportunity to sing with them again.
Everyone's fall apart. I hope. One day. We can do tat again.
Evidence two -
Jus recently Lavoce choir went to Shao Xing China for the 6th world choir games.
And congrats~!! They got Gold Medal 4~!!
This again strikes my heart.
I really missed alot of fun during the last trip to Xiamen China. Seriously.
I would have enjoy the trip nicely. If i'm not so jealousy.
Kinda funny rite? I know. But wat to do. I'm jus 15~!!
Evidence three -
there's something i always wanted to apologize but i still do not have the guts.
It happened long time ago .
I dun wan to mention what evidence is tat but SORRY.
I think i will go personally.~!
Evidence Four -
DUN THINK TOO MUCH.
Jus enjoy SINGING.
Singing in choir is the Happiest Moment ever in Life.
I jus wish i could go bek to the past.
Or we shud create the future? ^^
I think i'm just too far away from that.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
It has been ages since the last time I updated my blog.
Connections here are bad. So… no choice ler….
Final is jus in one week ~ Hope I could manage to finish.T.T
I never felt so depressed for such a long time. guess I’m jus having some life problem.
Somehow I’m thinking, how shud I value myself?
From other’s point of view or shud I take my stand?
I cud have jus split it out but it seems hard.
For tat someone.
Sorry seems the only word I could say.
Maybe sorry cannot solve or even heal your wound but I still owe u tat.
I’m currently in a r/s which I do not have the guts to tell you.
Pls dun take it wrongly.
Ya, Guiltiness came upon me.
But yet, I dun think I did something wrong.
Pls be strong as I know u would.
Why life must be so complicated?
Why is the feeling coming back?
Why do I care?
Why do I Have to face all this things?
Take a breath.
Jus couldn’t breathe.
Put ur arms around me and hold me.
Assure tat I’ll be safe in your arms.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
3 yrs ~ I'm so cute rite?
Wonder y my look become like this. Haiz.
Accidentally found this picture and i went OMG.....~!
I'm so chubby~!
Me and my grandpa. I doesnt look like a 6 yrs old child. So mature.
My graduation pic for Seri Murni Kindergarten.
Oh and this one? I look like her rite?
She's my mom. haha =D
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Coz my mom dun let me switch on da aircond.... ><
Anyway, my cutie little apple is taking her nap now...
Bought some stuff for her to chew....
Had been playing since morning......
Argh.. jus woke up from my nap and i was sweating.... ><
wat a hot day.
And theres really nthing to do today...
Keep on eating eating and eating.
People pls if u suddenly found my face turning round pls pls pls tell me.
Someone actually ruined my day..... It was so ... argh.. dunno how to explain la...
Having mood swing, guess periods coming again....
Such a complicated day.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Sitting in front of the desktop.
The line is so damn fast. Haha
Hmm.... My house changed alot.
They changed the fridge, changed the sofa,
changed the television set when i'm not at home... WTF.
But its really good to b home,
my bed my bao bao my blankie....
Still so awake. coz of jet lag. ><
#JAIMIE LAI IS BEK IN MALAYSIA. #
* I miss you *
Friday, March 5, 2010
I'm so fucked up.
People actually ignoring my argument. F"""k Him.
I'm not trying to be racist but stilll some issue could not b tolerate la....
And i wonder y they cant let us talk.
Called me a terrorist. Say dun wan to see me again.
Hu wanna see u o... If i'm leading my comfortable life here i wont see u la....
U think u;re handsome ka?
Monday, March 1, 2010
Sitting down in front of the table doing ODS tooth models.
I wonder y the lecturer is rushing us ... haiz....
I did bad artworks. Seriously bad. Till i cannot accept. ARGH.
Nvmd. I'll make sure that i'll redo everything.
Its only 12 more dayz to go bek to malaysia. Excited.
1st time going home after so long. Haha...
Its now 12.57 am. So late dee yet i had jus finish sand-papering half of my ods models.
And i had a feeling of burning the lecturer's house down.Uhh....
Maybe you shud learn to let go something.
I'm so frustrated.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Classes, Projects, Exams. I miss home.
Woke up this morning by mama poppy and her babies.
She bring them back to the so call " cave" again.
Nvmd... later oni ask a boy to gao dim ....
But its still so early. Woke up at 7 and sleep bek.
I had a nice dream. Not really wiling to wake up actually. =P
Guess we r too tired yesterday, lie on the bed and doze off.
Steamboat was fun. Although the game session is cancelled.
Still manage to have a nice celebration for zap goh meh. ^^
And oh ya. Congratz to the seniors who has passed their exams.
Lastly . Again .
Happy Chinese Valentines Day and Chap Goh Meh.
Hope u all have a nice one.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I've disappeared for almost 4 months....
I was so tired this few dayz,
starting with the assignment, exams.( there's a story) , ODS impressions.
About the exam.
WHO WILL EVER ASK FOR MORE ASSIGNMENT AND EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH...... kinda feel like killing people.
and my eyes are swollen, thanks to shane tham.
He accidentally " exposed " his bird coz he tore his pants.
I DIN PEEP HIM BATHING. I SWEAR.
So....... its swollen. So pity la my eyes. T.T
Monday, February 22, 2010
Air conditioner is a great invention. I'm now sitting in my room with the max ac.
Hu.... Its like an oven outside. Cant imagine how summer is going to be.
Yesterday slept quite late coz there was a gambling session in my room.
And i think i got win gua.... haha....
Cooked bak kut teh and again. We lou sangggg.... =D
Slept at 2 am and it feel so shitty to wake up this morning.
But make it and went to class. Boring day as usual .
Rita ma took another 15 minutes of interaction session after class which makes me coming home late. ><
Thursday, February 18, 2010
I'm blurred of everything.
Jus tat Dr Isaac finally explained to us wat is blacks classification of cavity.
My head's going to burst.
Shud i go for it? Or i shall wait?
Hmmmmmm.... deep considerations.
It may be a good choice.
Seems that the 5th batch seniors has finished their exams today.
And most of them are leaving end of this month.
This indicates that we have to move out to senior hostel soon.
Hmmm.... Who's gonna b my roommate? i think roshiny promoted me to kamini, who is my future roommate according to the list.
But its still under consideration.
Blurred Blurred Blurred.
Headache Headache Headache.
Chiaoz Chiaoz. Need some sleep.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Before Alex Ng, Its Alex Lio who celebrated with me~ Haha
Now i found out 2 of my exs are ALEX.
Anyway, this year was a special year for me,
away from home, away from the warmth.
Hmm... But celebrating Valentines as a single may be a good thing too.
Although i din recieve any flowers, presents, but still, i had a happy one.
* I DID recieve flower but its not mine. Haha... And tat was an awful joke my lovely batchmates played on me.
Way to yercauld to celebrate. Me and evania had a romantic time sitting behind the boat. A ma and Yiwen had a great time paddling the boat. Haha.
Had a nice dinner, and cocktail - Tropical Madness.
The waiter actually remembered me. Wth...
And now me and lok ann being the " popular " one among Indians. Lol
Chiaoz. I miss them. And. I miss Him too.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
♥♥–CNY Celebration– ♥♥
♥♥–Yercauld Trip– ♥♥