Practicals and VIVA week SUCKS

This whole week have been sitting front of the table studying for all the viva and practicals....
Kinda PekChek and Sien.....
I think i screwed up my Anatomy embryology viva as the lecturer keep on shooking his head and ask me to go bek and study..... This is like OMG.... i've studied till 3.30am tat morning and woke up at 7 am to study again.... I'm so sad bout it...... Rest...Hmm... i think its still ok but haiz....
Nevermind la... its jus internal...
Todays biochemistry practical was like.... WTH..... Keep on repeating the same test but din get anything.... Stupid Osazones..... And the lecturers are so in cooperate...... One say wanna filter, one say no nid filter. Filter dee kena marah, din filter also kena marah.... SHIT....
Haizzzz..... I think its maggi again for me tonite.... hahaha.... Preparing for BIOCHEMISTRY VIVA....

放弃也是种快乐。( sakuralim.blogspot.com)

人的情感总是希望有所得，以为拥有的东西越多，自己就会越快乐。所以，这一人之常情就迫使我们沿着追寻获取的路走下去。可是，有一天，我们忽然惊觉：我们的忧郁、无聊、困惑、无奈、一切不快乐，都和我们的要求有关，我们之所以不快乐，是我们渴望拥有的东西太多了，或者，太执着了，不知不觉，我们已经执迷于某个事物上了。
　　譬如说，你爱上了一个人，而他(她)却不爱你，你的世界就微缩在对他(她)的感情上了，他(她)的一举手、一投足，都能吸引你的注意力，都能成为你快乐和痛苦的源泉。有时候，你明明知道那不是你的，却想去强求，或可能出于盲目自信，或过于相信精诚所至、金石为开，结果不断地努力，却遭来不断的挫折。有的靠缘分，有的靠机遇，有的得需要人们能以看山看水的心情来欣赏，不是自己的不强求，无法得到的就放弃。
　　懂得放弃才有快乐，背着包袱走路总是很辛苦。
　　我们在生活中，时刻都在取与舍中选择，我们又总是渴望着取，渴望着占有，常常忽略了舍，忽略了占有的反面--放弃。懂得了放弃的真意，也就理解了“失之东隅，收之桑榆”的妙谛。懂得了放弃的真意，静观万物，体会与世界一样博大的境界，我们自然会懂得适时地有所放弃，这正是我们获得内心平衡，获得快乐的好方法。
　　生活有时会逼迫你，不得不交出权力，不得不放走机遇，甚至不得不抛下爱情。你不可能什么都得到，生活中应该学会放弃。放弃会使你显得豁达豪爽。放弃会使你冷静主动，放弃会让你变得更智慧和更有力量。
　　什么应该放弃？放弃失恋带来的痛楚，放弃屈辱留下的仇恨，放弃心中所有难言的负荷；放弃浪费精力的争吵，放弃没完没了的解释；放弃对权力的角逐，放弃对金钱的贪欲，放弃对名利的争夺……一切源于自私的欲望，一切恶意的念头，一切固执的观念都应该放弃。
　　然而，放弃并非易事，需要很大的勇气。面对诸多不可为之事，勇于放弃，是明智的选择。只有毫不犹豫地放弃，才能重新轻松投入新生活，才会有新的发现和转机。
　　生活中缺少不了放弃。大千世界，取之弃之是相互伴随的，有所弃才有所取。人的一生是放弃和争取的矛盾统一体，潇洒地放弃不必要的名利，执著地追求自己的人生目标。
　　学会放弃，本身就是一种淘汰，一种选择，淘汰掉自己的弱项，选择自己的强项。放弃不是不思进取，恰到好处的放弃，正是为了更好地进取，常言道：退一步，海阔天空。
　　人生短暂，与浩瀚的历史长河相比，世间一切恩恩怨怨，功名利禄皆为短暂的一瞬，福兮祸所伏，祸兮福所倚。得意与失意，在人的一生中只是短短的一瞬。行至水穷处，坐看云起时。古今多少事，都付谈笑中。
　　一个老人在行驶的火车上，不小心把刚买的新鞋弄掉了一只，周围的人都为他惋惜。不料那老人立即把第二只鞋从窗口扔了出去，让人大吃一惊。老人解释道：“这一只鞋无论多么昂贵，对我来说也没有用了，如果有谁捡到一双鞋，说不定还能穿呢！”
　　显然，老人的行为已有了价值判断：与其抱残守缺，不如断然放弃。我们都有过某种重要的东西失去的事，且大都在心理上投下了阴影。究其原因，就是我们并没有调整心态去面对失去，没有从心理上承认失去，总是沉湎于已经不存在的东西。事实上，与其为失去的而懊恼，不如正视现实，换一个角度想问题：也许你失去的，正是他人应该得到的。
　　普希金在一首诗中写道：“一切都是暂时的，一切都会消逝；让失去的变为可爱。”有时，失去不一定是忧伤，反而会成为一种美丽；失去不一定是损失，反倒是一种奉献。只要我们抱着积极乐观的心态，失去也会变得可爱。
　　人生箴言：
　　放弃是一种睿智，它可以放飞心灵，可以还原本性，使你真实地享受人生；放弃是一种选择，没有明智的放弃就没有辉煌的选择。
　　进退从容，积极乐观，必然会迎来光辉的未来。放弃决不是毫无主见，随波逐流，更不是知难而退，而是一种寻求主动，积极进取的人生态度。
(文章阅读网 2010)

Theory Papersssss..... Finally end~ !

First internal exam is over....
For the past 4 dayz i was studying like hell but yet i dun think i did well in the exams... haha
But thanks god its over....
Dun really wanna stress myself for this internal exams coz its jus an internal....
SHANE THAM : Dun say me jia jia anymore.... My xin ji not heavy at all... Yours heavier... haha...
All i'm hoping for now is CHINESE NEW YEAR...
Although no angpaos this year, but nvmd la....
experiencing a different chinese new year abroad in INDIA....
Swt that we still need to attend class on the 2nd day of CNY...
5th Batch and 7th Batch having their Finals... So gambateh!
Our batch... hmmm..... Our house having a lot " peach flower " i guess so....
2 roomies get coupled in jus difference of 2 dayz.... Haha...
Congrats to Vivi ♥ Jessel and Dor ♥ Li herng....
And Dor keep on promoting her room...... Swt...
For me , single life is enjoyable i think.... haha....
He called last nite, and cried... I noe how he feel .....
Coz i experienced that before too.....

JY :
Get well soon ok?
I'll read ur blog and started to comment like wat a fren would do...
At least that we noe each other more than others do....
B HAPPY.... SMILE....

Cutie shrimpy and prawny.....

Moody Day

I skipped class today, as what u can see.. i'm sitting here blogging...

Yesterday i slept at 10 pm if i'm not mistaken, study oral biology half way on the bed...

It doesnt happen for a long time since SPM....

Started to stressed myself again i think.... tried my best to be relax...

Recently i'm not in good condition after all the things that happened...

Feeling moody and really dont have the passion to study,

y everytime the feel come when i'm supposed to be studying hard...

Internals coming.. No mood to study but i'll pass the test... At least.....

Working hard on physiology and biochem... The worst thing ever in the whole wide world....

ARGH!!!!!!!

There's million and millions of things spinning in my head now.... Headache.... @.@

Maybe i shud go bek to sleep after taking lunch and panadol so that i could fresh up my mind...

Chaoz...Studyng hard for the test tmr....

Its gonna be a tiring week

Next 2 weeks will b our internals....
I'm actually quite afraid....
Haven even started to study, especially Physiology and BioChemistry....
Really tired to have exams but i noe i can overcome it....
For so many years i survived in a world with exams exams and exams....
I lost weight, seriously, and i'm really shocked....
I think firstly when i came to india i was around 60 kgs....
Now i'm jus 55.8 kg.... Rin rin say she like my chubby look... haha...
I need to work out more..... 50 kgs ... haha...
My mom will kill me if she see this....
Maybe i'm too stressed these dayz?
Exams and Relationship problems making me tired.....
And thanks god its settled...
I noe i hurted him... Sry~ I cant concentrate in my studies ... Really...
I feel so damn guilty.... I have chosen to protect myself..... How selfish am i~
Anyway, Jus hope that i won fail my internals....
Good luck to me and everyone....

Thanks for wat u gave

It really ends izit?
Its kinda relieve for me .....
Sry for making u as a burden for me and i noe u would understand me...
I'm really tired.... Thanks for letting go...
Hope u can get a better one, u deserve tat....
Thanks and Sorry~

Holidays ended and here comes the new semester

Holiday ended @ 3rd Jan....
Time flies......
Started the second semester of my Bachelor Of Dental Surgeon....
Din get to update the holiday programs co of the connection problems and here it comes....
Accompanied shane to Isaac's clinic for Wisdom Tooth Impaction....
Watch the whole procedure and its kinda scary...haha....
Btw i have to do that in my future career so its better for me to accept....
He got his tooth extracted for free despite paying 8500 to another dentist....
31st DEC 2009
After tat was the new year steamboat.....
Went to the fish and vege market early in the morning,
suppose to wake up @ 5 am but ended up waking up at 6 am.....
Hahah.... Reach home and started preparing ....
Joanne and Li herng Joined us for dinner that day,
17 of us who din get to go bek to malaysia celebrated the day...
Had fun but its really tiring....
It really glad to see my daughters growing up...
From a tiny little puppy which only noe how to eat and sleep ...
Now they become so brave to bark at poppy and started to fight... lol....
Yet they like to sleep in the house and they sayang me so much.....
Hmmm.... Started with a new semester and having the first test in the morning.....
Oral Biology, Development of tooth.....
Tired to study and no mood oso....
Anyway.... going to sleep now.... its now 2 am in the morning..... Tired.....


* Its not tat i wanna hurt u but i really hope that you will understand.... I'm really tired.....

Bye 2009. Hi 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everybody....
This is really a late post to wish all of u ....
Coz the internet connection is not working since 28th Dec till today evening...
Many things actually happened in 2009....
Worked for more than half a year..... Started my course @ Sept...
And this is the year where i leave home so far away to India...
I'm suddenly single in the end of the year.......
Everything..... BYE .... Dun wan anything bad to happen in the begining of the year....
2010... New resolution?
Study hard and play hard too.....
Other than that.... i think nthing looo....
Anyway~ Happy new year to all of you~!!!