anxious.

I'm going to face my first uni final exam soon.

I don know why this final exam is so scary.

I never felt so anxious like this before.

Keep on studying but yet at the end u feel like its no enough.

So frustrated.

Yesterday i received his msg. He sounds sad.

He really noe the timing of making me sad. ==

Facing finals in another 3 dayz. I cried yesterday.

So so so so depressed.

Black eyes circles coming out. But yet i sleep alot.

Cant sleep well. Everybody ask me y stressed urself like tat?

The answer is i don know.

Whenever i try to sleep, all the thing i've study will run in my head circling my brain.

Like those cartoon~ == haha

Thanks to someone special.

U made me feel warm and secure.

Its good to have you here.

A Girl Who has missed a lot.

Suddenly a thought strikes my mind.
What if i'm not that stubborn?
Would i gain back the things that i've lost?
Or from this moment onwards i shud change?

Evidence one -
Maybe i shud have forgive her earlier.
Then i could gain back the fun i suppose to have in choir.
Singing used to be a part of me. Because of tat small incident, i gave up.
Feel so stupid and childish when i think back.
Haha. Now? I think i've lost the opportunity to sing with them again.
Everyone's fall apart. I hope. One day. We can do tat again.

Evidence two -
Jus recently Lavoce choir went to Shao Xing China for the 6th world choir games.
And congrats~!! They got Gold Medal 4~!!
This again strikes my heart.
I really missed alot of fun during the last trip to Xiamen China. Seriously.
I would have enjoy the trip nicely. If i'm not so jealousy.
Kinda funny rite? I know. But wat to do. I'm jus 15~!!

Evidence three -
there's something i always wanted to apologize but i still do not have the guts.
It happened long time ago .
I dun wan to mention what evidence is tat but SORRY.
I think i will go personally.~!

Evidence Four -
DUN THINK TOO MUCH.
Jus enjoy SINGING.
Singing in choir is the Happiest Moment ever in Life.
I jus wish i could go bek to the past.
Or we shud create the future? ^^
I think i'm just too far away from that.

Singing -- Enjoy~!!

## Singing is a part of my life#

Pictures after ages.

Pictures which i took randomly

Jus feel like practicing makeup after bored of studying...

Hope my skills are still there... haha

This pictures really so bad? Y everybody say i like " shen gui yuan fu" ?

Personally like tat pic. ==

Come Lets Guess~!! What is this???

Jai'mie's bek~

AGES.

It has been ages since the last time I updated my blog.

Connections here are bad. So… no choice ler….

Final is jus in one week ~ Hope I could manage to finish.T.T

Stressed.

I never felt so depressed for such a long time. guess I’m jus having some life problem.

Somehow I’m thinking, how shud I value myself?

From other’s point of view or shud I take my stand?

I cud have jus split it out but it seems hard.

For tat someone.

Sorry seems the only word I could say.

Maybe sorry cannot solve or even heal your wound but I still owe u tat.

I’m currently in a r/s which I do not have the guts to tell you.

Pls dun take it wrongly.

Ya, Guiltiness came upon me.

But yet, I dun think I did something wrong.

Pls be strong as I know u would.

Feeling Insecure.

Why life must be so complicated?

Why is the feeling coming back?

Why do I care?

Why do I Have to face all this things?

COLLAPSING.

Take a breath.

Jus couldn’t breathe.

Put ur arms around me and hold me.

Assure tat I’ll be safe in your arms.

After a week in Malaysia.

Came back for one week.

Felt like i've done nthing but eat eat eat . ><

Hmm..... I think i've completed half of my food list. Hehe

Sambal, satay, wan tan mee, gai si hor fun, char kuey teow, snacks,

japanese food, mom's cook, fook kin char, ngabou gai fan, lamb chop, fish and chips.

Hmm... Later got roasted duck and belacan fish. Whee.....

Din get to go out with many frens,

since they're all bzing with their work and assignments.

Last sat went out with a gong and a ma....

Off to subang by ktm and then to puchong ...

Had Sakae sushi @ IOI mall, then head to a ma house.

Met kai ye and kai ma for a while then went home.

I'm so so so so bored. Haven find da jie summore.

My sweets disappeareddd~!!!!!!! Argh...

I'm going to midvalley tmr and penang on thursday.

Friday going out with shane and kido,

maybe nite time going out with kai heng they all....

Hmm... and 4 more days to leave.

Feel like not counting it but.... its still a fact that i have to accept.

# moody day #

# #

Who does Jaimie Look like?

MyHeritage: Look-alike Meter - Family reunion - Free family history

Jaimie's growing album.

Jaimie's Growing chart~!

When i was borned.

Next to me is Ho Jen Chien who is 2 months older than me~

Big eyes gal. Tats where this name comes from.
My 1st Birthday with my daddy and mommy.

My 2nd Birthday with Godmother and Godfather.

Godmother passed away a year ago due to breast cancer.

I really do miss her a lot.

Oh, this is my mom's Spitz. Wendy. She died after my grandpa passed away.

3 yrs ~ I'm so cute rite?

Wonder y my look become like this. Haiz.

Accidentally found this picture and i went OMG.....~!

I'm so chubby~!

4 yrs old - Trip to Australia with mom and dad.
Oh~ Half naked. Shy Neh. XD

Oh wat a poser am i.~ =P

Was posing for competition and da above one : i'm da bridesmaid ( i dunno wat is it for a child)

Me and my grandpa. I doesnt look like a 6 yrs old child. So mature.

My graduation pic for Seri Murni Kindergarten.

OMG. My obese period. Somehow look so round.

Form 2~
Jaimie Lai @ March 2010 .

Oh and this one? I look like her rite?

She's my mom. haha =D

Hot Hot Hot Thursday.

Malaysia is really hot.... And i noe y...
Coz my mom dun let me switch on da aircond.... ><
Haha...
Anyway, my cutie little apple is taking her nap now...
Bought some stuff for her to chew....
Had been playing since morning......
Argh.. jus woke up from my nap and i was sweating.... ><
wat a hot day.
And theres really nthing to do today...
Keep on eating eating and eating.
People pls if u suddenly found my face turning round pls pls pls tell me.
==
Someone actually ruined my day..... It was so ... argh.. dunno how to explain la...
Having mood swing, guess periods coming again....

# Is it stupid to miss someone who doesnt even misses me at all? #

# Do you miss me? =p #

Complicated feelings.

I think i chipped of a part of the enamel from my third molar....

Such a complicated day.

DAY 3 = Malaysia.

Today i woke up so early ~ 8 AM ( which means its jus 5.30 am in INDIA)

Had breakfast with my mom after sending my brothers to tuition.

Then went to Pet shop to see see look look.

Guess wat... I got a miniature schnauzer..... yeah~!

And this is da most complicated part...

my dad dun like dogs, so ... i kena lo...

Then my mom dun wan to let my dad noe its her idea to buy dogs.

Then i have to pura pura kena marah lo~ ><

the worst part is my youngest brother tried to strunggle da 2 month old puppy...

So scary lar....

I firstly named it as kochi... And get scolded again... and now da new name is apple...

SWT

# I think i shud not bother him for this few dayz#

# I miss you, do you miss me? #

Lonely TUESDAY morning.

Suppose i'm waiting for a call.

From my beloving cousin who says tat we shud go out today for a movie.

So. I'm waiting. I think she haven even got up from bed~ ><

My mom went out without me, of course its becoz i overslept.

And my 2 brothers are outside watching animation....

Hmmm..... Watever.

Yesterday was quite a shocking day for me.

He really came with a banner and flowers to my house.

Thanks Sachin for ur dream and it really comes true. ><

Haiz.

But i think i managed to settle. I hope so.

Talked to him for about 1 or 2 hrs i forgot.

Hmm.. And i'm happy he can treat me as a fren at last. FRIEND.

Lalalalalala

Anyway, hope my phone line can b activated as soon as possible.

Its quite suffering without a phone no. Wanna call pun susah.

Phone No : 0172039878

People if u dun noe me ps dun call me or msg me ok? I'm leaving my no here jus for my FRIENDS.

# Wondering if u miss me too?#